I am done

I am ready to live life differently. I am tired of being caught up in worldly woes and fears. I am disgusted with my obsession with capitalism and possessions. I would rather be dirt poor and happy than rich and friendless. I have such a longing to see broken people healed and the power of God restored to this earth. I don't want to hear the demand of money, the scream of success, or the taunting of perfection anymore. I am done wasting my time, my energy, and my resources on empty concerns. I am being given an opportunity to live differently, to make a difference, to heal past wounds. I would be foolish to not walk in the middle of God's will. I will no longer fear being seen as crazy, irresponsible, delusional, or idealistic. I have lived far too long thinking God's truths and not living them.

I don't want worldly success, provision, or lust. I believe God blesses. However, I refuse to believe that blessing is a wealth of money, stuff, or occupational success. I want to be able to look back on my life and count the tears wept in joy and healing instead of counting the coins in my purse. I want to look back and see the strong foundation of fellowship and friendship instead of the foundation of an expensive home. I don't want a fancy car; I want a heavenly driver. I don't want pretty clothes; I want God's holy covering. I want calloused feet from walking out my faith and wrinkles from laughing in God's presence. Don't give me facts, statistics, or conclusions. Give me Truth, wisdom, and the unknown. I don't want to close my eyes and see this empty world. I want to open my eyes and see God's heart.

I am done with watered down faith, conditional deliverance, and static living. My life was bought at too high of a cost for me to live to play. I will not retire from my heavenly calling. I will not take a vacation from God's plan. My road will not be easy, and my destination will be far. But, God's burden is light and His path is true.

I will live as a child of God.