Mattress Diary of the Internet

I delete my blogs like nobody's business. The idea of these posts collectively combining into an overall picture of me freaks me out. What if I wrote something while particularly under the influence of melancholy? What if people start to think I am some depressing writer pretending to be artistic with my whiny thoughts? Delete. The whole hiding your diary under your mattress is definitely the way to go. I can't help but write me. How do people do it? I also have to be the most inconsistent blogger on this planet. I go through stages of poetry, short story, and rambling nonsense. There is a slight possibility that I forget about posting on schedule, write in rampages, and then disappear for a few months. Is this normal?